why don't you go where fashion sits?

notorious_killa @ 2006-12-11T20:07:00

2006-12-12T01:07:41Z

man, it amazing how much i don't want to do my homework, and how much i didn't know i had to do in the first place! hah! fucking skipped yoga for that shit!

BUT! at least i can listen to music on my computer now and play with things to make it not quite so awful. among other things.

minus my stomach has been hurting all day and i have a headache and my sinuses are being bitches. boooo.

but it still was a good day?

i guess i'm just generally happy. woot.

notorious_killa @ 2006-12-05T01:20:00

2006-12-05T06:20:15Z

mew computer! its not broken anymore! wooo!

life is going so so well, but im too afraid to get too excited. im wary of all these good things. this doesn't happen to me, something is ganna give. im so ready for this all to end.

but hell im going ot live it fucking UP while i've got it!!!

notorious_killa @ 2006-10-19T17:40:00

2006-10-19T22:41:46Z

this applying to college stuff is really stressing me out!! aaah! guuurrghagasdhfgs booo, not into it. nooot into it.

but i FINALLY have a winter coat! hooray!!

pie of course!

2006-10-07T05:40:52Z

I LOVE pie, i totally forgot until today. Pie is incredible! Im just in time for pie season!

thoughts and such

2006-10-01T20:58:14Z

wow, today was a good sunday! raaaaaare!

i said i would post this last night so: I AM POOL CHAMPION

and, this thursday, i want to go to lunch buffet.who knows good lunch buffets?

notorious_killa @ 2006-09-24T12:46:00

2006-09-24T17:52:39Z

wow, today was positively lovely! the weather was just so fine. Why can't all fall days be so nice?

Now that i think about it, i am really into the weather. A large portion of my day kindof centers itself around the weather, and not just in the literal sense that applies to pretty much everyone. Just the fact that it occupies that much of my day is...weird? is that weird? or maybe everyone thinks like this, but they choose not to talk about it because its really lame. damn, now i feel lame.

buuut it could be that other people don't talk about it because they're afraid other people will think they're lame, and now any/all of those people will now know that they have a kindred soul to bond with.

over weather.

and its me!

wooo

notorious_killa @ 2006-09-20T20:56:00

2006-09-21T01:57:59Z

i made up the best story about "iron monarch II". The new messiah of all butterflies. i feel cool.

notorious_killa @ 2006-09-19T20:36:00

2006-09-20T01:40:42Z

dude what the fuck is up with my emotions. i seriously went through like 7 emotions, both highs and lows, on the walk home from school alone! thats like what... ten minutes?

im sick of this.

i guess thats my general attitude towards everything right now. im just sick of it pretty much. and it sucks because theres really honestly nothing i can do about it, just kindof have to live with it.

SUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS!

but, on a positive ending note, something i always strive to have, i did buy some kick ass silicone ended tongs today for cooking, and they work quite nicely, especially for stirfry. AND my purchasing them helped raise money for breast cancer research. so woot to that.

notorious_killa @ 2006-09-16T11:28:00

2006-09-16T16:32:47Z

i totaly didn't mean to post that, i was just doing a spell check, and i guess i hit post. oops

notorious_killa @ 2006-09-15T22:09:00

2006-09-16T03:25:28Z

man,i just got myself re-pissed off about something i had forgotten about. and i can't get the song "silent night" yeah,you know the christmas carol, out of my head!!!!

and theres so many other things that are just like really really getting to me tonight, really bringing me down

life!!! im so sick of you! you and your difficulty! its too much sometimes, gimme a break! damn you!!

saterday morning's refreshing reflection

2006-09-09T16:07:40Z

i love coffee!!! i've been sooo into it lately. a lot of my life has centered around it recently. getting together with people, morning routine... example:

last four purchases:
~ personal coffee press -> $26.85
~ pound of french roast coffee (specially ground to accommodate french press) -> $9.45
~ stainless steel coffee mug (for "shit im running late" mornings) -> $11.95
~ small "strong" coffee of the day -> $1.35
*plus tax*

so yeah, im sad to say my caffeine addiction has got off to a running start. its kinda like that day when you start shaving your legs, once it starts you have to do it your whole life. but i can deal. my mother has been feeding me coffee since i was a wee tyke (hollah to coffee-milk), so i guess its somewhat normal, and i guess its not THAT young to start.

but now im part of the large majority of the world under the label of socially acceptable addictions, which i discussed on the way to school with rachel (while drinking my coffee of course), and being under a label never sat with me too well, though im probably subject to a lot of other labels that irritate me more than caffine addict.

ON ANOTHER NOTE: did anyone happen to just smell the air this morning, it was so crisp and fresh and fall-y, it was lovely. i love that. im so ready for fall, but im not as prepared as i'd like to be. need more sweaters, scarves, hats, and gloves. and perhaps a pair of corduroys. but im still pumped.

it says contemplative because i've contemplated quite a few things this morning, but these are the easiest things to express in a concise manner. and things im ok with posting on the internet for anyone to read if they so choose.

HEY EVERYONE!!!

2006-08-29T17:29:42Z

OK, SO YOU KNOW RACE FOR THE CURE? YEAH, YOU SHOULD DO IT, AND YOU SHOULD DO IT WITH ME!!!

THERE A TEAM SET UP DEDICATED TO MY MOTHER : TEAM ROXANE

IF YOU WANT TO PARTICIPATE WITH THIS GROUP, REGISTER ONLINE (www.komenmilwaukee.org) UNDER TEAM ROXANE.

I WOULD APPRECIATE ANYONE WHO WANTED TO HELP FOR REEL, IT WOULD MEAN A LOT.

notorious_killa @ 2006-08-22T10:33:00

2006-08-22T15:36:17Z

wow, fucking midnight most philisophical conversation of my life. that fucking changed everything.

and it better fucking stick!!! if it doesn't i'll be angry, but mostly at myself.

but man. life is sooo worth being excited for. theres so many things to miss out on if you get caught up in some pointless ass shit that does absolutely nothing but ruin your opertunities. then again, you also grow from it.

man.life. what a paradigm.

notorious_killa @ 2006-08-15T01:45:00

2006-08-15T06:47:59Z

i have found a new calling.

i will become THE greatest puppeteer in the universe

creating the most funkalicious marionette dance parties you can imagine.

random thought part two!

2006-07-25T01:09:57Z

i suppose, while im at it, profanity may also be in my best interest to limit.

random thought

2006-07-25T01:08:21Z

i've come to the conclusion that i really need to remove the word

"tight"

(being as a means of speaking highly of something else)

from my vocabulary.

it makes me sound so...unintelligent.

which i most definitely am fucking not.

damnit.

aaah stupid caffine, why must you block my sleepage!

2006-07-12T06:14:59Z

i never thought that watching over a certain amount of TV could make me feel...shitty, i guess. its like the feeling you get from eating too much junk food except in your brain. a brain ache/melt. i need some pepto-brain-ol.i guess i could also just say 'a book' or 'a hobby' or 'a life' to really sum it up, but pepto-brain-ol is way higher on the clever scale.

and we all know im all about being clever...

....on that note..

..im going to...

go to bed??

see, look how clever that was!

TRIUMPH!!!

notorious_killa @ 2006-07-06T14:54:00

2006-07-06T19:56:31Z

yesterday was so good. it was good for so many reasons. im so glad yesterday happened.

i feel better about life as of yesterday.

woo life. you go life.

oh another completely random note...man! my skin is so damn smooth! my face feels so smooth and soft, its incredible!

but anyways. woohoo, im down with life.

world cup finalists!! woohoo!!!

2006-07-06T07:17:28Z

VIVE LA FRANCE!!! ALLEZ LES BLEUS!!!

notorious_killa @ 2006-07-04T04:11:00

2006-07-04T09:16:12Z

what the fuck am i doing at 4 o clock in the damn morning looking at bikinis that are on sale. i should be asleep. i should have been asleep like 2 hours ago. damn the internet. damn cable television. it sucks the life out of...life pretty much.

but oh how enjoyable they are indeed.

i mean, what could be more enjoyable than "snap yo fingaz" at 3:30 am??

not too many things, i can tell you that much.

aaah.... refreshed...

2006-06-20T20:19:06Z

wow..

seriously, i feel so...just so...good, you know? i feel relaxed, at last.

i feel like incredible weight and just like ugly monsters, to put it in 'little kid' terms, have just like

vacated the premises

which is incredible. i feel so so soo much better, i just feel good. i feel happy, relaxed, organized, i feel like i've got my head together and like my life is just settling out, and i can just handle it.

i can handle it man, i can handle it.

god im so fucking happy that i feel good, i love feeling good, woot for feeling good, honestly.

no joke, what they say is true, when you feel good on an emotional level, you look better and just things, everything is just so much better. just the little sparkle in your eyes and color in your face that says "hey man, im feelin good" you know? i got that. at least i feel like I do, but don't come up all lookin at my face searching for what im talking about. I think it's something that one notices on a personal level, but maybe other people can see it too. which would be awesome!!

anyhoo, i sound like an idiot like born-again lunatic.

but i thought i'd express how good i feel.

i feel good yall, i feel good.

almost bursting...

with goodness.

i guess if you wanted to break it down further, you could say this goodness is really happiness

i feel happy.

happy happy happy, at last.

p.s. seriously everyone, journals can sometimes be so incredible. just to write something down can provide an uncanny release. instead of being inside of you, its on the paper, if you wanted to put it little kid terms yet again. but seriously. that shit works. at least for me.

AP CHEM I KICKED YOUR MOTHER FUCKIN ASS!!!!!!

2006-06-03T02:38:53Z

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES I MET MY GOAL! MY LIFE IS SO FUCKIN GOOD AS OF THIS MOMENT. FUCKIN A. I GOT MY MOTHERFUCKIN A. IM SO HAPPY YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND. I WORKED SO GOD DAMNED HARD, AND I FUCKIN DID IT BITCHES. YES. THIS IS SO GOOD.

i came sooo close to gettin an A- which would have been good and all, but not what i fucking slaved for for the whole year, you know what i mean? fuckin 50/50 on that last test! hellz fuckin yeah. my life. it is bliss, for the time being at least.

p.s. yes, i understand im a huge nerd.

final lineup

2006-05-23T03:20:34Z

ok, here are the things i AM going to. i jstu need someone to go with.

intonation june 24th w/ suz

hedgepeth july 28th

pitchfork july 29th-30th

lollapalooza (hopefully) aug 4-6

ima be buyin tickets soon, very soon indeed, so let me know

and i also decided that no matter how hard i try, even if i go to soccer camp and get on paco's team (which i probably wouldn't) i still wouldn't be good enoug by next season to make it on varsity. so, im not ganna go to soccer camp. i'll probably just do track next year. i mean really, everyone can run, right?

notorious_killa @ 2006-05-16T19:32:00

2006-05-17T00:33:59Z

ok freel guys, lets get it together and buy these music festival tickets before they go up in price, or sell out. who wants to go? whoever you are, lets order them soon!! hurry hurry run!

music festivals!!!!

2006-05-14T21:55:42Z

who wants to go to the following with me this summer:

lollapalooza
first day of intonation
pitchfork

lollapalooza looks really good this year, we should seriously get on that.